so, the past few days i've been like 95% happier than i had been in the past few months. not for any particular reason, i've just been happy. life isn't terrible and my room is clean. my car is sucking, but it runs. and i'm working more since im not in classes right now. its weird, i kept on wanting to be over cait, but i never got there, ill always miss what we had, no doubt, but now i am just dwelling on it and thats is never good. I gave my all in that relationship, so whatever, i'm over it. he can have her and her big ball of craziness and control. It feels good again to hang out with friends and do what the fuck i want to do rather than wait for her to get out work, or her to wake up or her to get home from school. i know, i know its been six months and i should've BEEN over her already but, i dated her for almost 3 years, i wanted to marry her at one point, so i think you can understand why it took so long for me to get to the point i'm at now. she got there quicker because she had a old man and a douche bag and a family that supports everything she does to fall back on. i mean i had friends, but by the time i was able to hang out with them again they all had girlfriends or boyfriends that they hung out with alot, so i was SOL. but now, i'm at the point where i am happy being single and hanging out with rob and joe and dave and erin and brad and luke again. I was lost for awhile, but i really am finding myself again and i feel good. and thanks to punchline for helping me get over this. because the song "somewhere in the dark" really chronicles the past few months of my life and how i really feel at this moment on 2/1/2009:
Somewhere in the dark, I wonder if you knew
How truly happy I was sitting next to you
Then you took the cat and car and drove away,
And I had to figure out how to be alone
I carried around my phone and waited for your call
It's funny, you needed me,
But now you don't need me at all
Now I do what I want, when I want
And you...
Well, I don't even know where you are
I've got some news
I might like it better without you, baby
What does that prove?
The moment's past, and I am fast asleep
(Heyyy)Now I play guitar,and hang out with my friends
I have your blue shirt, (blue shirt)It's still sitting by my bed
Strange how the scent makes it feel like you're here
But I like the blue shirt more than you
I've got some news
I might like it better without you, baby
What does that prove?
The moment's past, and I am fast asleep (Hey-ay)
Sooo...
I've got some news
I might like it better without you, baby
What does that prove?
The moment's past, and I forgot what I was singin' about!
I've got some news
I might like it better without you, baby!
that being said,
on super bowl sunday, i have to buy deodorant, laundry detergent, and a new shirt. lets go cards. keep it an NFC champion game. when does baseball season start now?
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