same as yesterday

lol


safety blanket off lol

tampa bay rays '09

changes need to be made. two nights in a row, we have to lead, tonight a substantial lead, and we blow it in the bottom of the ninth. either we need to condition our starting pitching to go 8 innings and give the ball to cormier or....balfour? i don't know, or we need to trade away big names for awesome late relief pitching. either way, i want to prove that 2008 wasn't a fluke and we can stay over .500 for more than a day. don't disappoint me

blood

BLOOOOODDDD

i move in 3 days

also, i know this is kinda late, but i got a new dog! her name is princess and shes the one on the left.

its like, the hours leading up to midnight go fast as shit, but once midnight comes, times slows almost to a stop. its like, you look at your watch at 12:00 and then you look at it an hour later, and it's only 12:01. catch my drift?

5/24/2009

lol kthxbai

nicer days

It's nearly been a year since she's been gone
But we still sing her goodbye songs
And he knows, he should move on
But he just can't let her go
No, he just can't let her go

summer is coming up fast, fast. so much has changed in the past couple months for me and i'm not nearly the same person i was a year ago. i more outgoing and less friendly. i still hate the same things, in fact i hate more things. i'd like to think i've grown up a lot. i think i have. i'm trying to rerail everything, i hope i can. i really hope that i can. tougher times ahead...

its friday night

i'm sick and felt like writing.

i can't wait for the following:

1. june 19. mets vs rays! at citifield! w/ brad!

2. the last weekend in june going to D.C.

3. possible road trip this summer.

4. making more lists

i'm really stoked on life. i'm really happy that the weather is warming up and the soon i will be at the beach or in a pool. i'm getting back on my feet. and its crazy that its almost been a year since cait and i got into that fight that was the true catalyst to the end. oh well. im on my way

this sucks

there has been a few things upsetting me recently, but one that has really gotten to me is the current situation with my brother. now, I'm not one of those people that is a super go-getter, but i like to have a level of normalcy. My brother is 11 years old. in a few months he'll be in middle school. My brother has yet to learn how to ride a bike, I'm not sure if he knows how to tie his shoes, he doesn't know how to throw a baseball. Its not that he hasn't been taught any of this, he has no interest to learn it. He has no push to do it. Its times like this that i wished that i still lived at home so i could try and push him to do these things. i mean, by middle school, i was riding my bike everyday and skateboarding. I played baseball and basketball. my life revolved around physical activity. I would be outside from sunrise to sunset. and if i didn't want to be outside, my mom would make me.
This whole thing really makes me sad. It also just proves that my mom has changed significantly in raising a child since i was young. When i tried to get him to throw a baseball or ride a bike, i am told by his parents that he doesn't want to do it. all he does is play video games...and that's it. i mean, he rings hand bells in church, but past that he doesn't anything.
The worst part is that i work with kids that are around his age and these kids struck me as being 4-5 years older in maturity than my brother. My brother is 11 and strikes me as being at the maturity level of a 1st or 2nd grader. and what is worse than that is that my mom sees absolutely nothing wrong with it. My mom criticizes me for being a little overweight or chewing with my mouth open, but the one thing that i can say is that my social skills at his age were much more adequate. and i did all possible active things i could and i still do. if someone said, "mike, lets go shoot hoops or play baseball or football or go bike riding," i would be down in a second. hell, I've never played hockey in my life, but if it was suggested, i would go out and buy a stick in a second. and i would have done the same thing when i was 11.
i know you, the reader, probably don't care about this as much as i do, but it has honestly made me super sad. even some of my friends who aren't the most athletically inclined are fairly knowledgeable about sports...it just makes me sad and i wish that there was more that i could do.