Sunday, March 22, 2009






So, thursday, i decided to take all my hair off.


even my beard.....


i miss it.




Things with C have been going pretty well. i can't complain much. falling asleep with her is amazing and i wish i could do it every night.




















This weekend was really good. I did a whole lot of nothing and couldn't complain about it. Friday i hung out with my best friends and got free rita's and played wii. Saturday i broke my bike out and went for a ride! and today, i hung out with luke and i'm seeing C later. so all in all, i had a good weekend.




RED RANGER!!!!



nothing special. but i love her.








also,


i found this sign in Auten Rd. Intermediate School in Hillsborough, NJ. It was made by a teacher:






Thursday, March 19, 2009

since july of 2005

My life has never been terrible. I consider myself lucky for the most part. Both my parents are alive, i'm alive, i have a roof over my head. And although, my life is okay now, and i can never complain too much about what has happened in the past 4 years, i also can't say that it has been the smoothest ride. I just wanted to clear all this shit up because alot of people don't know the whole story.
I'll never say that i am the easiest person to deal with, i don't usually step down to authority and eventually got kicked out of my house.
July 30th, 2005.
I spent three days living in my friend, Shawn Hannon's basement and trying to convince my mother to let me back in the house. Ultimately, it was decided that would move to New Port Richey, FL to live with my dad.
August 3rd, 2005.
I went to stay at my aunt's house overnight so my uncle could drive me to Newark Liberty International Airport. I had an early flight to Tampa International Airport on the 4th.
August 5th, 2005.
My 18th birthday. What better way to spend it but at warped tour, alone. yeah, it sucked a little being alone, but at least i got to do to warped tour.
August 6th, 2005.
I started work at National Distributing Company Inc. in Tampa, FL at 3:00 am.
I sorted though over 1,000 bottles of wine and inspected the cork on each one.
in the weeks to come, i would do this several times, as well as, clean up spills, clean out garbage drains, clean up shit-covered bathrooms and sleep in the breakroom.
September 4th 2005.
This was the day i was supposed to come back to new jersey to live with my mom and start college asap. Unfortunatly, this did not happen. i was not welcome back to live with my mom. I boarded a flight to newark from tampa and was picked up by my aunts and cousins. for the next few months, i would wear out my welcome at my aunt's house.
October, 2005.
I don't know the exact date, but i started working at TGI Fridays in Flemington, NJ. This would bring me to the realization i would never want to work in food service ever again.
November, 5th 2005.
I started dating a girl named Liz Chambers. I am straight edge and at the time was "hate edge" and she, well she was completely not edge, so it was different for me. But I would eventually lose my virginity to her. I don't regret this. At all. She was different and things we never really easy with her, i really enjoyed being with her. but this would be over days before christmas 2005.
December ??, 2005.
I don't know the exact day, but i went to clark to do some christmas shopping and see liz and i got a flat tire in the van i was borrowing from my aunt and uncle. Instead of going home as my uncle asked me to do, i went to liz's and then back to my aunt's. this was the day i wore out my welcome at my aunt's. I got home and my uncle flipped out on me, and for three days i did not leave my room. I pee'd in a bottle and did not shower. Finally i called my friend vinny and asked him to pick me up. I packed up all my stuff and took only what i needed and when he and Phil came to pick me up, i hoped in the pick up truck and left.
december ??, 2005.
I lived on vinny's couch for a week and would wear out my welcome there. but luckily, i was invited back to my mom's house for christmas and three days after that i would move into my new diggs and start going to DeVry Univerisity. Things were getting better with mom and she offered to give me 5000 for a new car. I would buy a 1995 Jeep Cherokee for 3000 dollars total and i would end up putting more money into repairing it than i did buying it.
December 25-31, 2005 - Jan. 1, 2006
With my new car, things getting better with with my mom, and things were looking up. all my awesome edge friends hated me for a stupid reason in my opinion, but i was making new friends and things we getting okay.
March 10, 2006.
I jump forward past two uneventful months. This day will always be important to me. After only knowing her for less than a week, i asked Caitlyn Ann Cafferty to be my girlfriend and she said yes.
Summer 2006.
I was a bum. I lost my job at Target. I quit UPS. Cait paid for alot of my shit, including gas. But after a few weeks of searching, i found a job working for Bob's Stores on Rt. one in south brunswick. School-wise, i was kicked out of DeVry for the first time because i failed 90% of my classes. all except the one english class i had. Maybe this should have opened my eyes to the fact that DeVry wasn't right for me, but currently i am 20,000 bucks in debt because of it. Friend-wise, i was making new ones who would later become my best friends. Brad, Dave, Erin, Simer. That summer i spent everyday as follows: I would work from 7-11 am. go home, eat, go to either hidden lake pool or the other hidden lake pool and hang out with dave and brad, hang out with cait in the afternoon. I would be at the pool so much that eventually APA gave me a job and i was no longer bum-like.
Fall 2006.
Things related to DeVry started to deteriorate. I still was doing shitty in school and i hated my new roommate in "devry housing". Also my jeep started to become a burden on my wallet and my mom began to suggest that i get a new car and start going to Middlesex County College. She would help me out with both. My helped me buy a 2004 Saturn Ion sedan. It was minimal in extras but it would do the job getting me from a to b (and still does). I also made the decision to leave DeVry, which would mean i would have to move out of their housing. i spent much of fall and early winter finding somewhere new to live.
December 2006.
I found a place near cook college. on a saturday, my mom and i went there to check it out. when we get to 17 Comstock, a large man, by the name of Luke Harp opened the door. I didn't need to see the room when i saw his two large dogs come up to me. I love dogs and always wanted to live with them. It didn't matter how shitty the room was(and it was) i wanted to live there. That day, i signed the lease and would move in on Jan 2nd, 2007.
Jan 2nd, 2007.
With the help of Dave and Cait, i moved my shit into 17 comstock.
April, 5 2007.
By this time, i was no longer at Devry, I was almost settled at 17 Comstock and i had started a new job at Vital Mobile Care Co. because the bob's i worked at had gone out of business. I had been looking at dogs on Petfinder.com and found one at Franklin Animal Shelter. A 1 year-old boxer-aussie shepherd mix. Luke, cait and i went to the shelter to see the dog, but it was closed for black friday. Luke told me that his girlfriend worked at a pet store and could help me out. We went to Pets Pets Pets in somerset and there they had 2 boxer-aussie shepherd mixes. one was white with brown spots and had blue eyes and the other was fawn with a black muzzle. I looked at the one with the blue eyes and wanted her, but she was flipping out barking, while her sister the average looking one was sitting there quietly. I asked to see the average looking one. They took her out of her crate and gave her to me. the first thing she did when in my arms was give me a kiss and i instantly fell in love with her. Cait named her abby and i brought her home that day. Abby was a hassle when i first got her. she had an infection and pooped alot and wouldn't eat sometimes and didn't (and still doesn't) like new people. But she is probably the best part of my life.
September 2007-May 2008.
this was my first full year at Middlesex CC. I fucked up and then got back on track. I started work at Catholic Charities and it is currently to date my favorite job that i have ever had. In March, Cait and i celebrated our 2 year and i got her and i a room in a bed and breakfast in Cape May. On May 5th i took cait to Beauclaire's bed and breakfast and it was great. probably one of the best times of my life.
Summer 2008.
Things began to go south with cait. I began to be an asshole, she began to look elsewhere. and in August, we broke up. I would remain depressed for months. probably until the end of jan. of 2009. We celebrated our birthdays together and that was the last thing we would ever celebrate.
September 9th, 2008.
After i got home from work, there was a knock on my door. I opened it and on my porch were 2 police officers. "Are you Michael Nazzaro?" the one asked. turns out cait wanted to make sure that i knew things were really over by getting a restraining order against me. Things she said in it were taken out of context and blown out of proportion. Thanks to luke and dave and erin for really being there for me at that time.
Jan. 2009.
I met a girl. i'd rather not go into the situation because it wouldn't be fair or easy to explain. but i can honestly say that i am truly happy again. I had done great in school in the fall semester and although financial restrictions have kept me from school in the spring, i am rolling with the punchs.
March 2009.
nothing is easy and this isn't either. i am still taking the hits as they come, but my life could always be worse. and i can't say i'm not happy right now, i am happy. she makes me happy. and i know things are kinda weird with us, its a good weird and i love it.

i guess that should clear a few things up. being it took me an hour to write.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

this soap opera grows more complex by the day

Monday, March 9, 2009

this may not end poorly for me after all. we'll see, keep a watch

Sunday, March 8, 2009

this is the best worst feeling i've ever had or the worst best feeling.

i'm happy and sick at the same time.

Monday, March 2, 2009

i wouldn't call this a good weekend, but i wouldn't call it bad.

good things are on the way