poetry

so, i feel like haven't written poetry in like years. so i guess i'd give it a run. i'll post an old one and a new one. please give me some feedback.

A Short Glance

i've speant the last few nights up later than usual
a basic over-analyzation of the words
or the few short moments of silence
so here i lay.
early in the morning or late at night
however you would like to look at it
tv on mute, music on loud
pouring my heart into a few short words
a three hour thought process
turned into a few short lines
and every thought consists of you and i
good and bad
young and old
everything in between moment with every thats makes it worth everything
and yet i still lay, i am still writting.
and the world can keep its empty hearts.

cause i want to call this our bed.
but i can't even call this apartment my home
when i fall asleep, i really meet you at our spot,
but sometimes you dont show...
should i give up?
i hope you say no

things will get better if you give it time.
things will get better if i give it time.
things will get better.

UNTITLED 6

I've paced the hallways of this house
for the past 12 weeks
always the same thoughts
wired.
By the way,
the same eyes greet me everyday.
I've been wearing flannel
for the past 12 weeks.
I hide a lot more,
and go out only if I have to.
I've been listening to country songs
for the past 12 weeks.
and contemplate about how they tell my story.
and how about 130 weeks could disappear in 12 weeks.
I've been doing nothing
for the past 12 weeks,
but sitting by the phone
knowing you won't call
because
for the past 12 weeks,
i've made the same amount of mistakes
that i did in 130 weeks
and I've made million.

so, sometimes i think i read too much into things.
but i really don't think i did.
but i mean, we'll see.



if you're ever coming to kentucky...louisville is the only place you should go...more specifically, the downtown district. because pretty much everything else is boring as shit.

i'm really looking forward to sunday.
i'm really not looking forward to the drive home.
i'm really looking forward to cities.
i'm really not looking forward to another semester.

uh oh.
theres been a problem...
not my fault.
any insight?

i mean, c'mon, how could i not?

i haven't this much like shit in awhile. 2 years and about 5 months and you can just be fine without me? its my birthday next week and i don't even wanna celebrate it. I mean when i say that she is my life, im not lying. she says i need to live for myself, but i don't really to live with out here. but i guess i can't do anything about it, because she doesn't want it. i'm hating being alone right now. just in general, im sitting here typing this im alone in my room and i feel like i am going to collapse from the inside out. maybe ill get tattooed tonight

if i was a hundred years old,
i would never forget your face.


we got the dogs out right before the rain started!






Hercules the puppy! he is only 3 1/2 months and already weighs 32 lbs.



abby and daisy








Tucker hanging from a tree (his favorite thing to do)



























abby and prince

oh yeah, bridezilla

small world right?
my step cousin's dad is in-fucking-sane, and so is poor kid's step mom...or ex-stepmom....or new step-mom.
anyway, they're going to be on the tv show Bridezilla on WE @9pm tmw. If you have nothing better to watch at that time, i suggest you watch it. The bride's name is Lisa. I won't be on it, but you'll see my idiot step-mother....and my dad will be somewhere in the background. ahaha.

saturday

my arm is fucking killing me.
but i'm pretty stoked about the baseball game on sunday because will and his brother are gonna be playing. also i hope i get to play third.
i hate the fact that i don't look forward to going to work ever.
i also hate moving right now. and i hate gas prices.

but i love this:
one the best times of my life...
you can see me on stage at one point in a red shirt:

ayo

i hate mid-state...or at least the work it entails.

bruised, burnt, bleeding and beat.
CATHOLIC CHARITIES SAVE ME NOW!

i want a good burger or something right now. or to die. either one really.

also, my favorite or most anticipated albums of the rest of 2008:
10. Weezer- The Red Album
9. Less Than Jake - GNV FLA
8. Alkaline Trio - Agony and Irony
7. Have Heart- Songs to Scream at the Sun
6. Misery Signals - Controller
5. The Gaslight Anthem - The 59 Sound
4. Hit The Lights - Skip School, Start Fights
3. Streetlight Manifesto - TBA
2. New Found Glory - TBA
1. Undertow - TBA EP!!!! it will drop this year hahahaha

Day 4

i figured i would chronicle my weeks with Mid-State sprinklers day by day.
Today was an okay day. I still dislike this job.
CC ok'd me for the summer program. but i still have 3 weeks until i can start. next week i'm working at mid-state again, then theres E-week, then another week at Mid-State. But i think it will all work out in the end, because by august, i'll have my CDL.

so yeah..i'm fuckin beat.

day 3

it was a better day, but friday will be the day i give my two weeks.
that is, if CC will solidify a job with me.
Today I had to crawl under buildings and my pants fucking ripped and my shit fucking ripped and i smell like shit because of the fucking glycol in the fucking pipes.
fuck this job. fuck waking up at 6:15 am. and fuckin working 9 hours. I can't wait to work summer camp.

day 2

I never wanted this.
none of this.
i just wanted you and all your thoughts and dreams.
i wanted your opinions and i wanted them to be part of my life.
i wanted to have an easy life.
fuck
oh and this:

somebody's baby

today I found somebody's baby
she was alone at the time
she didn't realize that the world is wide
that everything will engulf her
and only spit out her bones
and only teach not to trust anyone
or anything.

today I found someone's baby
But she wanted nothing to do with me
she wanted the present.
she wanted much of the same
she wanted me to leave her about her business.

today I went a different route
engulfed in the choice that i made,
and the consequences i accepted,
i ignored the road and continued on my usual path

today I told her that I wouldn't disappear anymore.
Tomorrow I'm gone.

four days, 14 hours, 18 min, 48sec
fuck it.