oh yeah, bridezilla

small world right?
my step cousin's dad is in-fucking-sane, and so is poor kid's step mom...or ex-stepmom....or new step-mom.
anyway, they're going to be on the tv show Bridezilla on WE @9pm tmw. If you have nothing better to watch at that time, i suggest you watch it. The bride's name is Lisa. I won't be on it, but you'll see my idiot step-mother....and my dad will be somewhere in the background. ahaha.

saturday

my arm is fucking killing me.
but i'm pretty stoked about the baseball game on sunday because will and his brother are gonna be playing. also i hope i get to play third.
i hate the fact that i don't look forward to going to work ever.
i also hate moving right now. and i hate gas prices.

but i love this:
one the best times of my life...
you can see me on stage at one point in a red shirt:

ayo

i hate mid-state...or at least the work it entails.

bruised, burnt, bleeding and beat.
CATHOLIC CHARITIES SAVE ME NOW!

i want a good burger or something right now. or to die. either one really.

also, my favorite or most anticipated albums of the rest of 2008:
10. Weezer- The Red Album
9. Less Than Jake - GNV FLA
8. Alkaline Trio - Agony and Irony
7. Have Heart- Songs to Scream at the Sun
6. Misery Signals - Controller
5. The Gaslight Anthem - The 59 Sound
4. Hit The Lights - Skip School, Start Fights
3. Streetlight Manifesto - TBA
2. New Found Glory - TBA
1. Undertow - TBA EP!!!! it will drop this year hahahaha

Day 4

i figured i would chronicle my weeks with Mid-State sprinklers day by day.
Today was an okay day. I still dislike this job.
CC ok'd me for the summer program. but i still have 3 weeks until i can start. next week i'm working at mid-state again, then theres E-week, then another week at Mid-State. But i think it will all work out in the end, because by august, i'll have my CDL.

so yeah..i'm fuckin beat.

day 3

it was a better day, but friday will be the day i give my two weeks.
that is, if CC will solidify a job with me.
Today I had to crawl under buildings and my pants fucking ripped and my shit fucking ripped and i smell like shit because of the fucking glycol in the fucking pipes.
fuck this job. fuck waking up at 6:15 am. and fuckin working 9 hours. I can't wait to work summer camp.

day 2

I never wanted this.
none of this.
i just wanted you and all your thoughts and dreams.
i wanted your opinions and i wanted them to be part of my life.
i wanted to have an easy life.
fuck
oh and this:

somebody's baby

today I found somebody's baby
she was alone at the time
she didn't realize that the world is wide
that everything will engulf her
and only spit out her bones
and only teach not to trust anyone
or anything.

today I found someone's baby
But she wanted nothing to do with me
she wanted the present.
she wanted much of the same
she wanted me to leave her about her business.

today I went a different route
engulfed in the choice that i made,
and the consequences i accepted,
i ignored the road and continued on my usual path

today I told her that I wouldn't disappear anymore.
Tomorrow I'm gone.

four days, 14 hours, 18 min, 48sec
fuck it.