I thought I'd write, I thought I'd let you know
In the year since you've been gone I've finally let you go
And I hope you find some time to drop a note
But if you won't
Then you won't
And I will consider you gone
I know that you went straight to someone else
While I worked through all this shit here by myself
And I think that you should spend some time alone
But if you won't
Then you won't
And I will consider you gone
I wake up in the night
All alone and it's alright
The chemicals are wearing off
Since you've gone
The days go on, the lights go off and on
And nothing really matters when you're gone
If you think that you feel nothing at all
If you don't (If you don't)
Then you don't (No, you won't)
If you won't
Then you won't
And I will
Then I will
Yeah, and I will consider you gone

i've got to stop looking through my myspace inbox at old messages. now i just feel like a jerk on like 10,000 fronts

also, i've been restrained for a year.
never thought it would last, i mean when it happened i never thought it would stick, but thats the pits and we all have to suck it up and move on, even though its taken me forever. it wasn't meant to be and i'm okay with that now. I do miss you, because you were my best friend, but i'm okay now. I used to think i couldn't live without you and i found out that i can, and i am.
If you and i were ever to decide we could be friends again someday, great, but if not, i'll be fine, i've got my own life to worry about, and i'm pretty proud of what i am becoming, but, I can't say that i am anything but happy for you and who you're becoming, so good luck in life, i wish you all the best.

on to the next chapter in my life...

Chapter 2:
the escape from alca....new brunswick...

going to school part time makes me feel like a piece of shit